Saturday, September 6, 2008

Blessed some more...

How do you hear God? In the quiet moments, when I can slow down this crazy life I have signed up for, sometimes it is not so easy. I am reading the most amazing book, "The Shack" right now. It is reshaping the way I see my "Papa" and changing the way I see Him and see myself. I want so much more, but I struggle to put everything else aside and really get close to Him. I long to immerse myself in the Spirit. I wish I were able to work at church and just live there.

When I was a little girl, attending Catholic middle school, I used to want to be a nun. As I got older, I thought I was crazy. What kind of life was that? Now, I remember it and wonder if I'd known myself better then than when I grew up a little. I would hate for spending time with Papa to have to be a chore, or an obligation. If it is truly from my heart, then why would I need to have time created for me, when I should put it first, regardless of what my schedule dictates?



School has started. I am the head of the Math department this year. We are trying to come back from academic unacceptability. I have 8 teachers that rely on me to advocate for them. I love it. It grows me into being more assertive and more proactive. I also have to think on my feet a lot more. Jesus definitely has a plan for me. I want to be right smack in the middle of it. I started a prayer group this past week. One person came, and we shared burdens, and that was such a blessing. What I love even more than that, is that people who can't come are welcomed to give me their burdens, and I will lift them up to Papa on their behalf and people are trusting me with their hearts. It is an awesome blessing and responsibility. I want to be able to be trusted with their situations and really lift these prayers to the Heavens. I love being at school, yet being able to be at my Father's business. I love Him so much. My Father loves me, sustains me, and I want to follow wherever He leads. I am so blessed to be the daughter of my parents, the parent to my children, the wife to my husband, and the princess to my Papa. I am blessed to be the teacher to my students, the coworker to my teachers, and the friend to my friends. I love my life, I praise my Lord, I revel in Him.



Addonai, El Shaddai, You alone are God. Jesus, we cry out Your name.